Now

To survive in the modern world or to survive elsewhere?

Lately this question is accompanying my thoughts like clouds.

We survive quite well the modern jungle.

Never been much high tech, have an older version mobil phone, use it little, check mails few times a week, online searching info's, no games, and now sometimes keeping up my blog, but only that is more time consuming than I wish.

Drawing, working for income, routine tasks, days passes quickly by without feeling real connection with anything.

I like physical work, specially outside.

Combination of quiet and active work is the best.

But now in this "full house" network, finding a clue or a binding to somewhere, with such a fast internet connection, I feel lost.

The natural life, more basic and primitive attracts me more and more.

Where can I feel part of life?

Yes, for who does charity or community work, it feels a kind of integration.

Maybe it can bring a fulfilling satisfaction.

But Men kind is too much linked with economy growth, profit, elite forms of self serving intellectualization. Charity or community work has target better quality of life oriented for human kind. Outside is more than us, nature and other forms of life are equally important to get in balance with.

Greenpeace and some other initiatives busy protecting nature are getting bureaucratic and sometimes financial business, with a good cause in mind.

But in practice, now, how can we live less slave of modern complicated network without losing the principles of life itself, connecting with immediate surrounding?

I dream to build one day a self sustainable home, to have a modest varied green plantation for our consume, to need less possible the use of money and be in peace in the natural jungle.